Scars

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Scar is ugly ,is pain ,is hard to be erased or even cannot be cleaned . My leg has a scar , an ugly scar like a leech 。This is not a big deal and I never give a damn on it .Conversely ,the scar in my heart is killing me in every single minute .I always try to move it away from my heart but I can't. I am not able to do it. It's deep.

There is a similarity between both scar -----made by myself . I spoiled the skin of my left leg with my careless attitude . I hurted the outer skin of my heart with believing in a wrong person. However ,the scar will disappear if time goes day by day . 

I couldn't leave a scar in my body anymore .Otherwise my heart will bleed until it lack of blood. Due to the scar ,I am being alert of everyone . especially the guy I am liking right now. I don't dare to fall in love with him.I know it is unfair to him ,. sorry .

Perhaps I will change my mind for the coming day .Everything is possible ,right? but not now.Seriously ,I am tired of acting like a happy lark.It's fake.I want to be emo in school but I don't dare to do it because I will stop chating with my bunch and even stop answering the question teacher is asking.I only will sleep and do homework.For me ,this type of mei shan is horrible .There are no differences with a mental problem person.That's why I don't dare to do it.I must control myself from being that kind of person.

Luckily,I have best friends by my side all the time .especially zheng yang and zhi yin.They know all the problem of my current life. Zhi yin is pek cek-ing also .Girl！You must be tough ！You couldn't fail in your problem ! ❤  We must be strong ！=)

and zheng yang.=) You are the one who I always share my sadness with and also the one I always neglect. xp.SORRY LARH ！because I always busy with internet ,studyies and =D but I am not going to change it =D because I love the current me =D hahaha! ❤！

Wow~this post seems so cheong hei .lols ,should stop right now .=)

：Please stay with me when I am moody .

When I close my eyes I think of you

And the times we’ve had been through

Even though we’re far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me

How you’ve made my world complete

But now I’m left alone

We talked about love and hope

Wishing we could start a life our own

I wish that I could live without you

# Why did you tear my heart apart

You said you’d love me from the start

All those painful things you’ve put me through

But I’m still loving you

I’ve tried to give my best to you

I don’t deserve the things you do

Everything has gone to memories

I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies.

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I can't say it but I mean it

Malaysia 's networks should be improved to the better one.

OK. NO OFFENSE

：

总是有那么一个人，会把你气的直跺脚，把你伤的直哭，把你弄得像个疯子，但是只要他说句什么，你就又会笑的最甜

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朋友，有很多种。谈心，谈衣，谈学,甚至谈性。

每个朋友，都和我们相同的地方，可是，不是完全一样，而是，有些一样。

有的人抱怨，他的朋友不好，不是真心的朋友。因为当向对方倾述时，换来的只是‘哦“，甚至毫不在乎的态度。我们不能说他们不好，只是彼此相同的地方并非此处。他们不会背叛我们，不会挖苦我们，可是，谈心事的时候，总是闹得不欢而散。这究竟是为什么？

原因只有一个。朋友并非万能。recycle bin 都会分成三种，朋友是人，很理所当然的不可能三合一。

有的朋友，和他逛街扫货，最快乐不过！可是，一谈到心事，却冷场收尾。另一种朋友，和他倾述，拿意见，犹如专属的心理学家，对着他，能够完完全全的释放内心的情绪。但是，和他逛街，他ok,也许，就只有咖啡店，MPH的心理质询部门成为我们逛街的首选。

他们不好吗？从未出卖我们，从未背叛我们，不曾欺骗我们，一叫就到！不好吗？？！！简直就是好到不得了！可是，我们必须懂得在什么情况之下呼唤他们。

：遇见你是命运的安排，成为了朋友，是我的选择。

而爱上你，是我无法控制的意外

Future

Guys ,have you planned your future ？What do you all expect to get in the future？LOUIS VUITTON ？PRADA？BANANA REPUBLIC ？or a double storey house ？ or even bangalow？

My mom told me that being a 20 until 25 young people , should have your own house or  a car .Conversely ,people should not pay on material too much ,may be you will be happy and be proud of carrying a branded bag ,dressing up with TOP SHOP clothes , wearing NIKE SHOES ,but think properly ,do you get any benifit  

from these except THE HAPPINESS ? 

Some of people have a opposite thinking from the people who I have mentioned at the previous paragraph.For them ,They will buy a car or a house 1st.And then they will pay for their car or house per month .Then ,they will spend their another part of money on investing .Lastly,if they have some money left ,They will buy some material to encourage themself . So,what benifit they will get by this way? 

They have a stable place to be lived ,they have their own car instead of boarding public transport .They will earn money by investing .They have a constant saving account ,Lastly ,THEY BE THE RICH GUY .=)

A wise people not only know which shop doing promotion but also understand what 's the situation of financial. They will pay out but at the same time they earn also . 

I'm not born in a golden key family ,as such I have to depends on myself . People might think that I am pity and unlucky .But for me ,I think it is ok cos I know how to get more money and also know how to plan my future life .and I'm glad I am not shopaholic although I love shopping =D！I will think properly whether I need to buy it or not before paying .  

Still,I will choose those branded shop like COTTON ON,FOREVER 21 even I'm not that rich .cos I think those clothes are more quality than times square rm20per cloth shop .LOLS ! 

So,how I save the money ？ I am being a tutor ,so that I will save 60percent of my montly salary into my bank =).

                                                                                       ：

我欣赏的女人，应该穿得起几千元的大衣，也不嫌弃几十元的T恤；享受得了高档的咖啡厅，也咽得下边的麻辣烫；坐得起豪华轿车，也hold住11路公交车；出席得了高雅的宴会，也嗨得起姐妹们的聚会。

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whose fault ?

Whose fault? How I know ?~.~

Honestly ,I hate those people who only asks people "WHY ? WHAT YOU WANT ? "

DAMN！

ok.CLOSE TOPIC.

Today I touched gan sheng hsien's leg ！WOW ! your legs are freaking white ！！！！and SKINNY !（pek cek ) He is adorable and...FUNNY ！I like to sing for him , like :take a bow .this song is quite suitable for him cos there have some funny sentences ,such as ,YOU LOOK SO DUMB RIGHT NOW ，TRYING TO APOLOGISE ,YOU 'RE UGLY WHEN YOU CRY .xp

：All I want is GETTING OVER YOU ！

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I don't know whether the post is refering to me or not .However , I wanna say sorry to you . Apologising to you doesn't mean I did wrong but just feel so sorry to you .

ok.Back to the topic that I suppose to talk about in the begining . Feel special today . There are too many unexpected things occurred . He came to my class, but I never talk to him . Is my fault ？lols. Hence ,he din't go to puk in the end. haha!

Hey girl ！Why did you prefer staying at class to joining us during hari koperasi ？Aiyo,you missed the moment when carmen praised chong min yu !xp 

oh yea ！I knew some form 3 students during my tugas time ！=D they are debater and one of them is puk prefect .They are cute and funny .haha! hmm~~~ NICE TO MEET YOU GUYS ！❤ !

Somebody is always blaming on sendiri arh whenever "did wrong" (actually ,I never consider those as your fault ) lols. So,stop blaming on yourself ,lols. 

：please understand me

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ONLY YOU

AH HAR ！！！ KAN SUET YEE ！HAPPY BIRTHDAY ！！！！！！！

We are blue house member right ？xp  random ~.~

OK ！AUGUST BREAK , I WANNA HANG OUT WITH YOU ！！！

YOU BRING LUCK TO ME ARH ！！！

OK ！ THAT'S ALL

再说一句：我爱你 

❤

saranghaeyo xp

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three of you

ADD MATH 

CHEMISTRY

PHYSIC

最近很勤劳，无论是在学校，在家，还是教着补习，我都会复习老师所教的课程。说真的，真的很累。躺在床上，却担心着时间不够用，坐在椅子上，整个人昏昏欲睡。

最近我的生活作息真的完全改变了。放学回家，吃饭，洗澡，躺在床担心这个担心那个，教补习，休息二十分钟（想睡却不能睡），再教补习，晚餐 skip， 幸好还会上网，温习功课，睡觉。

补习的时间不上不下，最难搞！朋友的生日会不能出席，午觉不能，就连放空的时间也没有！

庆幸的是，我的两位学生很可爱，否则。。。。。。。后果不堪设想。。。。。

ok. 化学时间。=)

I LOVE HER SOSOSOSOS MUCH ！！！！

迟点介绍我的新学生！xp

：百感交集。

hey ! I just miss you ！

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random

from facebook

Long hair girls have more benifits than short hair girls. Even they have a plan look,depends on long hair ,they could be prettier than short hair girls.As such ,I decided to be a long hair girl after graduation .xp ah har ！discussed with melanie about this program !=P


ok.Start to talk about my problem.Dear May has gone ,consequently ,bad luck was gone too 。In fact, I should be happy to celebrate my Lovely June but don't know why I don't think I am very happy or having the feeling like "everything finally be fine ". Conversely , I start to worry those things will come to me again. I try to be alert of eveything ,no matter it is good or bad .


I am totally being sick of getting hurt .Tired of being myself. I know I need to change my personality but I don;t know where should I start with.


..................STUCK over here.

It's time to sleep .

I ‘m only human.

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Someone like you

I already gave up on earning money by promoting nuffnang ads. It's quite hard because I'm not a famous people like chuckei jane ,cik epal ,so this is not the best way of earning extra money .

Well,I am hardworking to do add math now .cos I cannot bear with my FAIL result ANYMORE！I must wake up ！Luckily ,I have a good tutor to help me that is mr shum =) I love his add math class cos I can eat oreo and play fool with friends when he is teaching .lols TODAY ,THAT CARMEN LEE WANNA EAT MY OREO ！！！IN THE END ,SHE DIDN'T .HAHA!

I love my history and add math tuition class because I can wear my homefit over there ！=D Even my hair also messy like hell ,I also dare to go there.lols 

In the afternoon ,I sms mr shum to inform him not to fetch me at 2.pm cos I was not free ,he asked me the reason ,I told him I was outside with mom instead of I was teaching my naughty girl . He trusts me .but he advised me that Don't always skip your tuition class. and he said : I extremely care about your study ！ .I was touched when got the message from him. I thought he already gave up on my add math but actually he DIDN'T ！dear teacher , I won't let you down anymore. and I have no the right to make you disappointed too ！

Oh yeah , I wanna apologise to my girl,khai jing ,cos I talked to her with angry sound on last thrusday.SORRY MY DEAR❤ I know it's not your fault ,I was pek cek with the kebersihan only . so don't be afraid of me .xp ❤ =）

nowadays ,people are STRESS  and ANNOYED ！

If this reveal in the public ,our relationship will be affected ,may be you will hate me ,Still,I wanna tell you , I didn't do wrong or betray you .Since I know you were the "X" ,I maintain the relationship as normal normal schoolmate. and you are my friend ,I won't do such thing to hurt you .

：主观的想法只会令自己更加转牛角尖。

我从不觉得这些事令我很风光，

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extraordinary thursday

Tomorrow is the sport day of my school , smk sri sentosa . Consequently ,most of pupils were absent or going for practising marching or cheerleaders .hmmm~ this is none of my business larh...lols, 

Due to my just "pass physic paper " ,I must have joined physic class as FAST as POSSIBLE or else I cannot catch with it anymore.Hence , I choose knowledge house ,oug . zhi yin is studying over there ,so I have companion right there. 

I was damn nervous when I was at zhi yin's house cos this is my 1st time to go there.opps! xp hmm~there is quite small and each class only contains 10students , when talking got echo somemore! =D HAHHA! most of them are my schoolmates ,like zhi yin ,teck lee , yik lam (expert kam ),lynas ,and yu ming. Boys are noisy FOR SURE ! lols 

the funniest moment over there that was teacher making fool on yik lam ! hahaahahah!!! I was really laughing out loud ! =D  hmm~ mr yeoh ( right spelling?xp) is good so I think I will be continue studying physic at knowledge house =) 

found from google 

that zheng yang orders me to study .....aiya !!! like an aunty you know?? lols !  ok ! from now on ,I won't be lazy bug anymore !otherwise you use your skill to punish me ,k?lols 

I have no comment on my mid year result , I am fed up with it .Just let it be the past tense and gonna forget about it .

me and my sista ..lols

oh yeah! I found out that Full house where is located at mid valley ,is a NICE place for high tea !=D

Its main colour is WHITE ! my favourite colour !<3 

picture have told you that it is PRETTY  and COVERED WITH ROMANTIC FEELING ! ❤ so,people must have a sit when come to mid valley .=)

：Don't pass out the golden chance once you get it .

別抱有太多幻想 別抱有太多慾望 讓自己心情少了一些空歡笑 如果是真愛更是值得商榷 那一定很理想 不要輕易的懷疑 不要輕易的放棄 你在我心裡還存有的默契 我一度以為幻覺 才能如此的殘忍 要重複多少要累積多少 才能像現在彼此的相遇 其實我知道縱然你離去 有一種經歷這麼死心又塌地 都在說愛愛愛會隨著時間磨滅 把幸福變的絕望 但只有愛愛愛才能夠讓我溫暖 我已經離不開你 可是這書上都說了愛是恆久忍耐 耗盡我所有 卻更加耐人尋味 讓我變得更淡定 拼命的每次較量 換來的每次原諒 都會讓自己變得有一點瘋狂 如果是真愛就算忍讓對方 還是兩敗俱傷 不要輕易的懷疑 不要輕易的放棄 你在我心裡還存有的默契 我一度以為幻覺 才能如此的殘忍 要重複多少要累積多少 才能像現在彼此的相遇 其實我知道縱然你離去 有一種經歷這麼死心又塌地 都在說愛愛愛會隨著時間磨滅 把幸福變的絕望 但只有愛愛愛才能夠讓我溫暖 我已經離不開你 可是這書上都說了愛是恆久忍耐 耗盡我所有 卻更加耐人尋味 讓我變得更淡定

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如果我的中学是循人。

今天，经过循人中学，礼堂的建设工程已完成，很不错。

四年前，因为害怕压力过大，选择了现任学校，

如果，当初，我坚持就读循人，我会怎样？

我会和嘉薇作为好朋友，分分钟还和ck混在一起玩。

和萤霜一起join合唱团，一起参加比赛，一起为表演练习，

可能我还会进日语学会诶！

每逢星期六，和朋友逛pavillion ,time square,sg wang,

每天回到家，一定会温习功课，时不时和朋友group study ，

这些，都很正面。

如果我的中学是循人。。。。。

我和carmen,munmun ，yan kye的友情会变淡，

完全不知道紫莹这个傻婆,

把紫凝和mindy只是当成小学同学，（朋友都不算诶）

最重要的是，不晓得4@11那么好玩！

这些，我会错过。。。

很多事情，总有很多面，有些看似失去，其实，就是拥有的开始。

一个已婚女人，渴望再来那耐人寻味的20岁生活，一次的意外，丈夫孩子都离开了她，

因为如此，她过着行尸走肉的生活，觉得世界不再有容那她的意思，她寻死。换成另一角度去

想。这不就可以自由了吗？她不再有任何的包袱，无需在家洗衣做饭，她可以回到婚前的生

活。这样想，就能放过自己。=）

：放下不甘心，放过自己。=）

我可能不会爱你

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Don't miss the one who treats you good 

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One step closer

Time has brought heart to me 

School is gonne reopen ,there is alot of stuff I have to complete,oh yea,hari terbuka is coming soon.seriously ,I plan to skip school for that day,I don't dare to reveal my sucks result to my lovely mom.I can't even imagine what would happen after she knows it , cancelling the samsung advance program ? stoping me to teach students? or......giving endless nag till I get better result ? #shitta

hmm~One step closer.

❤

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Nokia Lumia 900

Lols, yesterday my mom called me when she was working ,just wanna told me that there is a new smart phone released on January . That is ----nokia lumia 900 . =)

Nokia Lumia 900 is a Windows Phone 7.5-powered smartphone, first unveiled on January 9, 2012 by Nokia at Consumer Electronics Show 2012, where it won the Best Smartphone award in January 2012.^[2] The phone has 4G LTE support and was released in April, 2012. Nokia Lumia 900 has a 4.3″ display and a ClearBlack AMOLED 800×480 capacitive touchscreen. It also features a one piece polycarbonate body and is available in black, cyan ,pink and white.

I don't know why people damn focus on it's LTE , a telephony and mobile broadband communication standard.lols




ok.what its advantage?....... as a hammer.~.~.

It has quite cheap price ,in malaysia , only rm699 . 

There are 4 colours to be choose --white ,pink ,cyan ,white

So, which one is the best ? nokia lumia 900 ,samsung s advance or blackberry ？

still hestitating..lols.

ERMMMMM......try to use 阿宝色 to edit it.since it is popular for editng photo.

SONG FOR YOU

：Friend,are you ready to your future ？

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second holidays

Just finish updating 4@11 performance ,hmm~mr len , thank to your picture, and please don't be afraid of me ,I 'm not as fierce as you think ,ok?=)

ok,the 1st holiday has been endded up .I went to mid valley two days during 1st week ,it's quite awesome experience to me cos I seldom shopping so many times within one week,1st time shopped with lil sista,lols,pretty fun,we watched Men in black 3 and had high tea at Garden,mid valley .

Too bad Cotton on and Forever 21 haven't opened over there yet ,really #shitta .Both of us just walked randomly and never bought clothes,

Fortunately,I bought 2 shoes and a bag from pavillion and sg,wang when hanged out with' modelish 'carmen and yan kye ,lols~next time ,I will purcharse some shirt and short jeans from cotton on =)

How about my study ? lols , I touched it by doing math and addmath homeworks .thats all .Suck right?aiya~whatever larh.

Watching this show recently ,it is quite popular .No offense , I can't figure out anything is attracted me from it.I prefer hong kong drama .

Lastly , The problem between me and you seems gonna over ,but just SEEMS,I also don't know how to describe about it .the problem will be occured because you messed up everything,you don't even manage it neatly and smoothly but even complicated. 

ps*please don't ask me who is the person I talking about .

May has gone , June gives me surprises.

I gain one more student ,a standard two boy ,he is nervous when talking to me ,hahaha,don't worry ,I won't treat you bad if you respect me .=)

get addicted to unblock me !

So,how my smart phone plan ? erm..it is still working .lols.I found out another smart phone ---nokia lumia 900！=）gonna blog about it on tomorrow. fingers are tired now ,and brain is empty .

It's time to end post .

SONG FOR YOU

That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now

：I never give up 

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